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April 24, 2017

The Why

I’ve been doing a lot of introspective processing lately. I’ve felt this kind of lack of understanding the whole social media and blog world and it’s left me feeling rather defeated.

Let me back up for a moment.
When I re-launched Taking Steps Home with a new website and in turned stepped up my instagram – I think my “following” actually decreased. So I suppose I had the bright idea to launch Fedeli again and create an instagram for that….only to be left feeling like a flop.

I found myself listening to all of this marketing advice and attempting to, when I could, organically integrate it. Which led to me trying to find more relevant hashtags and follow new inspiring accounts. It made me look at my blog as a mistake which in turn spiraled me into this place of frustration.

Last week I decided that if I did post on instagram, I wasn’t going to hashtag; let’s call it a small social experiment. You want to know the results? It was really hit or miss; but also really comparable to the interaction I was already getting. Which brought me to the conclusion: being someone i’m not just doesn’t work.

I think y’all can small when I’m being unauthentic.
I think (and maybe I’m wrong) but that 90% of the people who read my ramblings probably miss more of the “this is my life” type posts and would like to see them more integrated in with the fluff stuff.
Then the rabbit hole opened up and I realized I haven’t really shared my soul in a while and y’all probably have no idea why I’m posting fluff instead of the nitty gritty. After a few deep breaths I also had to remember that we are all in different areas of life; some married, some single, some with children, some wanting children and some (like me) unsure of the whole child thing. There are also the spiritually on fire and the broken spirited; the health fanatic and the person avoiding it at all costs. There are so many labels that it’s kind of sickening, am’i’right?

I know this is a lot of rambling….but I guess it all boils down to “the why”.
Why am I blogging?
Why am I taking the time, money, and heartache that comes with writing words down on this website.
Honestly? Because when I actually make time for it, and do it from a real and honest place, it is extremely cathartic.

So, I promise to sit down this week and get real for a moment; and I’m starting today with a little rambling session. 😉
You’re welcome

  1. Kate

    April 24th, 2017 at 4:17 pm

    I know everyone looks for different things in a blog, but I’ve always liked “real” blogs; ie, I don’t care about product or fashion posts, I will always prefer a post about someone’s thoughts and feelings. You should blog however you want and in a way that feels right to YOU, but this is just my way of encouraging you and letting you know there is absolutely an audience out there who just wants to know how you are and read what’s in your heart. <3

  2. amurray

    April 26th, 2017 at 1:56 pm

    Yes, getting back to my roots is a dang challenge, but I know it needs to happen! <3
    Thank you for your encouragement Kate, seriously.

  3. Elizabeth

    April 24th, 2017 at 4:48 pm

    I love this! Amy you are doing great. You are right where the Lord has you. It is SO HARD NOT TO COMPARE (I know!) but you just got to stay on your path, trust Jesus, and be you! I’m so proud of you and this space you have created! XOXO

  4. amurray

    April 26th, 2017 at 1:58 pm

    Thank you Beth, your words are always such an encouragement. <3
    IT really is hard to not compare to others - we chat about it all the time!
    I'm learning to just BE ya know? BE who God has called me to be and be confident in that.

  5. Catherine Short

    April 26th, 2017 at 12:33 am

    I feel you. The blogging world feels so saturated and I question is my voice even necessary? But I also remember my blog forces me to share little moments that I now have documented.

  6. amurray

    April 26th, 2017 at 1:59 pm

    YES!
    That is one of my exact thoughts “is my voice even necessary”.
    I have to remind myself, like you said, that this space is something for me, to keep moments that I can look back on forever.

  7. kiki

    April 26th, 2017 at 3:17 am

    Hey lovely. 🙂 You know I’m allllll about the posts that bring peace and healing and love for all (the writer and the reader!). I do miss those posts but I know those posts are the ones that take the most time, thought, and intention so they’re hard to crank out when you have other deadlines, partnerships, and projects to work on!

    And I think it’s nice to have a balance–to have the fluff with a nice dose of nitty gritty mixed in, too. That’s how life is, right? <3

  8. amurray

    April 26th, 2017 at 2:00 pm

    They are the ones that take the most to actually sit down and process where you are right now.
    Internal reflection can be one of the hardest things.
    I definitely plan to keep some fluff, because like you said, THAT IS LIFE! <3
    Love ya girl!

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  10. Jess

    April 30th, 2017 at 3:12 am

    “Honestly? Because when I actually make time for it, and do it from a real and honest place, it is extremely cathartic.” This, a thousand times! I agree that finding that “sweet” spot is hard. Which is why when I don’t know why or what to post, my blog goes silent for a month. But, what you said above COMPLETELY hits the nail on the head for me as well.

    Love you, friend!

  11. amurray

    May 1st, 2017 at 2:45 pm

    Man, finding that sweet spot really IS hard right?!
    I go dark for a while too – So i totally understand. <3

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