frankly | trust and wait

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wait.

it seems to be the theme of my life lately.
i actually posted about God telling me to wait only a few short months ago.
you see, i am one of the most impatient people i know.
i want things done my way and on my timeline.
great character trait, i know. 😉

tuesday morning i was working through my devotional, kind of lack luster – heart heavy but not willing to really bend. you see, the night prior i had a long (few hours) conversation with my roommate. i was defensive, angry, bitter, and frustrated. i just kept telling her I’m tired.
and it is true – i am tired. i feel so incredibly overwhelmed in certain areas of my life.
i see things not crossed off of my ‘to-do list’ and areas where i need to do better, and be better, and share better. i keep setting these standards that are unreachable. normally my outlet is exercise – and i can’t even fully do that like i want (my body is a little beaten, strained muscles with a long healing time) – so my “outlet” has been a little useless.
so I’ve struggled with finding a way to really get things out – and my roommate just happened to take the brunt of it that night. she said some things i needed to hear, but they hurt – they needed to hurt. she also prayed with me and encouraged me – it was a night i needed.

through my devotional i came upon Isaiah 30:18(ESV)

“Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore He exalts Himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for Him.”

and i asked myself – am i waiting for God? or being impatient and running?
i continued on through the devotional – writing down excerpts, nodding my head in agreement, scribbling thoughts…but that scripture just kept weighing on me.
so i went back and opened the study bible near me (NIV) and started digging a little deeper.

“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you…”

foot notes:
// after punishing Israel, God will once again bless them
// leads to Isaiah 40:2

“Speak tenderly to Jerusalem, and proclaim to her that her hard service has been completed, that her sin has been paid for…”

foot notes:
// ‘speak tenderly’ – the Hebrew for this phrase is used also in 2 Ch 32:6 where Hezekiah ‘encouraged’ Judah to trust in God despite the Assyrian invasion.

all of this and so much more shows and affirms one thing to me.

– wait –
– trust –

God longs to commune with me. to envelope me in His arms and sooth my aching heart with balm. Scripture tells me that after punishment/desert God will once again bless me (in His terms, not what i think of a ‘blessing’) and to be encouraged within my struggle – especially when all seems lost and overwhelming.
my sin has been paid for.
God longs to be gracious to me.
to show mercy.
to give grace.

“…blessed are those who wait for Him.”
-Isaiah 30:18b

i must wait.
and trust while waiting.

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  • So many things about this post have hit home with me. I used to think that I was patient but realized that I'm much more patient with people than I am with God (well, I can be impatient with people at times, let's be honest). And when I realized that I realized just how much it's tied to trust, too. How I need to trust Him AND wait on Him, not just one or the other. Reading that verse in Isaiah was just what I needed, too. God is waiting on us. He is gracious (grace has been something I've been meditating on lately!). And He is merciful, too.

    Thank you for these words, Amy! It's so cool to hear that you and your roommate have such an awesome relationship. 🙂

  • I read this post several times over the weekend! All I can say is, I hate waiting, but I'm learning how sweet it is! We ARE blessed!

  • Really needed to read that verse… having a hard day today. Praying for you, girl.